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Friday, 13 August 2010

  • Retirement

    I will be retiring from site soon. As you can see, my screen name is "o2_16_o3." That date no longer means anything to me. It's just another day. I've promised myself that I can no longer drop ANYMORE tears for him. I'm trying my best right now. It's working a bit. I tear up but there's no waterworks. He's probably having a blast at OC right now...just like he did on 7/31 AND like how he went to foxwoods the wknd before then. Man, WTF was I thinking? Seriously, I've done soooooo much for this fool and I continue to do EVERYTHING for him and I get shit back, ALL THE TIME. I'm an idiot. A freaking stupidass idiot...it's time to move on. 

Sunday, 08 August 2010

  • The End

    We are over. REALLY over. I know that there's no saving us. There's nothing that we could do to fix "us." Sometimes, loving and caring for each other just isn't enough to make a relationship work. I tried. I have tried SO HARD the entire time we were together. Enough is enough and no matter how much it hurts, sometimes you just can't be together even though you want to so badly. Cong is my world, my everything, the love of my life. He's also the only person in my life who hurts me over and over again. I've came to the conclusion that we can't make it. I have to let him go. I can't hold onto him when he doesn't want to stay. I thought that I was all out of tears for him, but I guess not. He's still the only person who can get to me like this. My heart's been shattered so many times by him and I'm done. Really done this time. I will cry a river of tears for this man but I will never have him back in my life. It's over.

Thursday, 10 December 2009

Saturday, 28 November 2009

  • What the hell have I started?

    I think I've turned into a complete 'shopaholic.' Seriously, just this past month, I've bought over 5 pairs of shoes AND I'm at the mall at LEAST twice a week! What the hell am I turning into!? Bong Voeun or something!? I just bought 3 pairs of shoes from aldos yesterday, last weekend bought myself a pair of UGGs and the weekend before that got these cute lil ankle boots from Bakers. I can't say no to shoes the way I could with clothes or even FOOD lol. Look at me, I'm up at 9am ranting about shopping! Oh dear...

Saturday, 26 September 2009

  • Why is my life so damn retarded?

    I work in the Behavioral Medicine department so sometimes I feel bad complaining about my life. Seriously though, I don't understand why shit keeps happening to me. The fucked up part is, it not only happens to me, but it happens to the ones who are closest to me too.

    I was reading through my last few entries about Cong and it made me realize all the shit that we had gone through to get to where we are now. It made me realize how much we mean to each other. For once, I can say that I love him just as much as he loves me. I used to always say that it was one-sided and that I love him more and blah blah blah, but it was never like that. He loves me just as much.

    All of my entries have been about him, but you know what? He's the love of my life and my best friend for the past nearly 7 years now. He's seen me at my worst and my best as I have with him.

    What a journey it has been. January of 2003 until now...I'm glad it was with him. I can't picture my life with anyone else. I'm so thankful that he's shown me what true love is all about. The kind of love that my Grandmother have for my Grandfather. Since his passing, she never remarried even though she was only 41 years old at the time...she's 78 now.

    I can't wait for our wedding next year...well, hopefully next year. As long as no other stupid shit keeps happening...I will be the happiest bride ever.

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